This Candle will burn in Memory of Christina Always

Christina Ann Valle was born July 16th 1972 and died on October  17th 2005 Christina leaves behind her Mother Donna, Joseph her biological father and George her stepfather.  She also leaves behind her brother Joey and his wife Jessica.  Brother's George and Matthew Doinidis.  Her grandmother Virginia.  Aunt's and Uncle's Trisha, Eric, Diane, Henry Jr, Lupe and his wife.  Friends that cared for her.  Most of all she left behind her 3 beautiful children Johnathan, Jacob and Kathleen to go on without her.  Christina had suffered from Bi-Polar, and other disorder's that go along with depression.  Most of all I believe Christina died from loneliness the day her children children were taken  away from her.  Let us all remember the beautiful memories that Christina left behind for those that loved her and not the memories of the horrible disease that took over her life.  Christina will be missed by all of those who touched her life, but her memories will live forever in our hearts.

Christina You left us three years ago.  We will never forget you.  Not a day goes by that you are not thought of.  Love; Mom

If you click on the picture above it will take you to a site where you can listen to her last words in the hospital and more pictures.  Enjoy her memories.

Here is a link

Below you will find a link, that may be helpful for most of us who are survivors of suicide.  It may also help someone you love or maybe even yourself to understand what one is going through.  Please if you need help get it.  What a terrible way to live, is to live but to feel like you are dead.

 http://bipolarhelp.libsyn.com

Christina Ann Valle

                                     We will always love you.

    The Amazing Butterfly

This is about my confirmation that i had ask the Lord for 2 years. 

I always knew that Christina was saved.  When she was pregnant with her first child she had ask the Lord into her heart.  You could see the change in Christina.  It was about one year later after the birth of her son that she began to shy away from the Lord.  Around three weeks before her death she had gone to a Saturday night service with us at Lakewood Church.  After the message Joel made his alter call and Christina nearly beat him to the alter.  It was then that I knew Christina still knew there was a Savor Jesus Christ.  Soon after Christina's death I had  ask the Lord if he would just send confirmation to me.  It wasn't that I didn't believe, it would just give me that peace that I truly needed.  For some reason these little yellow butterflies would fly around but I knew that God would send a special one because he only sends the best.  We were all out side one afternoon when this butterfly circled through the garage and around the trees for about one hour.  We were amazed, I had ask Jacob to ask the Lord if the butterfly could land on his finger.  I went inside and minutes later Jacob comes inside with the butterfly on his finger.  I knew that was confirmation.  The story is that God does things in his timing not ours.  Keep the faith and the Lord will do amazing things for us.

     Three Years since you received your angel wings.

Christina it's hard to believe that you left us almost 3 years ago.  There is not one day that I don't think of you.  I wish that you could have held on, but I know the pain was unbearable for you.  My wish for others in memory of you is that we need to realize that when someone dies from suicide they really don't want to die they just want the pain to end just like any other pain.  The sad thing about mental illness is the stigma behind this horrible disease is, no one seems to take it serious.  When really if more would come forward and admit that they just don't know why they feel the way they do, maybe just maybe the mental health association may take it as serious as any other diseases that we suffer from.  Please, let us all come forward so that we can stamp out this pain that so cripples us from life.

To all of my dear angel friends.

I would like to thank all of you who have helped me to keep Christina's memory alive.

I am sorry that I have not been on the website as much as I would like to.  The reason for that is I am taking care of my soon to be 82 year old mother.  I am so thankful that the Lord has given her to me for this many years, but the stress can be hard at times.  Most of the time It is hard for me to take care of my self the way I should and I get down at times.  I just have to remember that the Lord has his own plans for me.  Again thank you all, and I hope to be on more often.  May the Lord give us all the strength we need to carry on each day.